WOW! its been a year!

I can't beleive that it has almost been a year since I last wrote in here!
There has been more bad things that happened than good this past year I feel. I really didn't feel like blogging because it would just be depressing! I am working on being more positive and trying to make it threw this constant storm of ours.

We have had MORE than our share of illnesses, doctor appointments, blood work, invasive procedures, diagnoses (me 5 this past year-bryant 1), family going threw some DEEP struggles-that I could barely focus on work cuz all I thought about was how to help, family that drove us cRaZy for months on end, work that SUCKED, bryants injury-now its been 2 and a half months since he has been out of work-now surgery, constant major car issues, moving-CONSTANT issues with this place, my anxiety issues still linger AND the list could go on and on. TRUST me!

BUT, we have also had our testimonies get stronger-I got the courage to bear it 3 times now- thats more than my WHOLE life total, we made the goal of getting sealed in the New York Manhattan Temple this year, Bryant hasn't had a sip of coffee in about 7 months now, I have lost almost 30 pounds in this time, I have been learning to forgive the 2 people in my life who have caused me SO MUCH pain (you have NO idea) and they are called my biological parents-my bishop has been helping me with this-if I can forgive THEM I can forgive ANYONE-work in progress, we do scripture study EVERY night, family prayer EVERY night, FHE on fridays-still a work in progress, paying tithing more, going to church EVERY sunday, our marriage has gotten stronger, he helps around the house more, I cook more healthier meals, I am learning to manage my anxiety without medication-TRUST me-its SUPER hard to do, we have BOTH come to a better understanding of the "reason" for both of our miscarriages-we are starting to think of them less and less-which is a good thing-we aren't forgetting those precious babies, but the pain behind it AND this list could go on and on.

So, we have taken our lessons from this past year and decided to take a GIANT leap of faith forward. Remembering the blessings that we HAVE recieved and the ones we WILL recieve! Holding onto the iron rod as we build our firm foundation in Jesus Christ. We know the storm will continue to pound us. We know that it will let up occasionally. We know that when the storm is gone, that it WILL come back. But, as long as we have each other and our focus is eternal, we can make it.